People cry, not because they're weak, but because they've been strong for too long.
Updated: Jun 30
𝑰 𝒘𝒂𝒔 𝒕𝒂𝒍𝒌𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒘𝒊𝒕𝒉 𝒐𝒏𝒆 𝒐𝒇 𝒎𝒚 𝒈𝒊𝒓𝒍𝒇𝒓𝒊𝒆𝒏𝒅𝒔 𝒕𝒐𝒅𝒂𝒚 𝒘𝒉𝒐'𝒔 𝒈𝒐𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒕𝒉𝒓𝒐𝒖𝒈𝒉 𝒂 𝒔𝒊𝒎𝒊𝒍𝒂𝒓 𝒔𝒕𝒊𝒕𝒖𝒕𝒊𝒐𝒏 𝒕𝒐 𝒐𝒏𝒆 𝑰 𝒇𝒐𝒖𝒏𝒅 𝒎𝒚𝒔𝒆𝒍𝒇 𝒊𝒏 𝒂 𝒘𝒉𝒊𝒍𝒆 𝒂𝒈𝒐 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒉𝒆𝒓𝒆'𝒔 𝒘𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝑰 𝒔𝒉𝒂𝒓𝒆𝒅 𝒘𝒊𝒕𝒉 𝒉𝒆𝒓: When you said about being hurt and disappointed in yourself it reminded me of the conversation I had only 2 nights ago - I felt so much shame for getting into the kind of situations I had.
But as I was told at the time: "NEVER feel shame for having been a good person."
I did what felt right then and now again I get to do what feels right for me now. I get to decide the narrative from here on out. I get to decide what happens and what doesn't.
For so long I'd gotten used to being the victim, but with just a change of thought that didn't have to be my place any more.
I could say goodbye to the past that couldn't be changed, and decide I wanted a bright future.
In fact the future was already brighter, just having unhelpful influences out of my life!
And it needed to start with me, focusing on ME.
SO often I've always thought about them, what they think, need, want, wasn't I this? wasn't I that? etc...
But now finally I thought - you know what? I don't F'ing care anymore - I'm going to turn the focus on myself.
👊What do I want? 👊What is it that I need right now? 👊What's the right thing for me?
Because a) I deserve to care for myself and b) every time I thought about them, I was putting myself down.
I had to take a pair of scissors and cut the jerks out of my life and look in the mirror and ask myself what it is I need right now?
❣️Maybe it's permisson to not care that I'm makeup free. You know me! I always said if you couldn't love me without make up then don't love me at all - cos I won't be wearing it most of the time! ❣️Maybe it's permisson to be a bigger size than I like to be, for this period of my life while I work through more important things. ❣️Maybe it's permission to actually love and care for myself. Because if I don't show that to myself I'm telling those around me that it's ok to do the same.
❣️Maybe it was recognising that tears are ok - people cry, not because they are weak, but because they've been strong for too long.