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Yes, I just compared myself to a cow.

Updated: Nov 7, 2022

If you've read either of my books Tomorrow's Not Promised or Make Today Count or you've been around me for a while you'll know a bit about my background.

I spent my first 30 years growing up in a strict religious cult and escaped 5 years ago.

That's it.

That's all you are getting from me on this - my books have the in-depth shitty stuff if you really want to read it.

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I was born into this world the fourth generation of my family to grow up in a strict fundamental Christian cult. As soon as I turned a week old, I began to attend ten church services a week - until the day I left in 2017.

During that time, I learned that there were very strict rules about what was right and what was wrong in this world, that I could not trust my inner being, and that I would need to spend the rest of my life attempting to please, what felt a very hard to please and at times cruel, God. I found myself in what I now see as white man's weaponizing of faith in order to exert control. I felt suffocated.

At sixteen I became very depressed, with the whole concept of the confines of the education system and the working world, on top of the rigorous control of the cult. At eighteen I attempted to escape but didn't feel I had enough skills to survive outside of the environment I knew, so I did my best to surrender my entire identity for the next twelve years. Through what was undoubtedly one of the darkest periods of my life.

At thirty I established I was in an untenable position, one in which there was less and less oxygen for survival and so I could either end my life or attempt life on the outside. I figured I'd try the latter first, as I could always end my life later if life on the outside didn't work out. In December 2022 I will have been free for five years.

Amusingly enough one of my greatest surprises about escaping is that I was far from alone in my search for freedom. As a relative newcomer to your world, all that I share is my perspective of finding greater levels of freedom and permission to be my authentic self.

I was like a cow who grazes and gazes over her hedgerow at the cars flying by on the road just outside her world - dreaming of crashing through the hedge that holds her in, of finding the gate open and ambling out into a world of freedom - only to find there are rules of the road, there are strict lanes in which one must travel certain directions, there are rules about who is supposed to use these roads and more rules about the speed they must travel.

What appeared to be an entirely free environment from inside the field, was but an illusion.

Yes, I just compared myself to a cow. (Shoulder shrug)

It was a total shock to my naïve brain that out in this big wide world I'd find thousands of people also searching for freedom, in the way I had.

And it took me all of 4 years to understand that there is a kind of physical freedom and a kind of emotional freedom and that both come in all sorts of layers.

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